Aarav had decided he was done with drawing.
The other boys in the village played cricket and mended nets and talked
about boats, and not one of them sat scribbling in a notebook the way he
did. So one afternoon he pushed his pencils and his battered sketchbook to
the very back of a drawer and told himself, firmly, "I'm finished. I won't
draw anymore. I'll be normal like everyone else."
For three days he tried.
On the first day, waiting for the fishing boats, he found a stick in his
hand and a perfect little crab scratched into the wet sand before he even
knew he was doing it. He rubbed it out fast and looked around, hoping no one
had seen.
On the second day, sitting in class, the edge of his notebook page filled
up with the curling lines of a wave and a gull, while the teacher talked
about something else entirely.
On the third day Dadu found him in the dark of the back room, the drawer
open, the sketchbook out, drawing the lamp flame by its own light.
Aarav froze, caught. "I keep telling myself to stop," he admitted miserably.
"I don't want to be the strange one. But my hand just — it does it on its
own. I can't seem to stop."
Dadu pulled up a stool and looked at the drawing — the flame caught so well
you could almost feel its warmth. "Why are you fighting it, my boy?"
"Because it's not what the others do."
"The others are not you," Dadu said gently. "This is how you are made. You
can spend your whole life shoving it into a drawer and feeling ashamed every
time it sneaks back out — and it will sneak back out, again and again,
because it is yours. Or —" he tapped the open sketchbook, "— you can stop
hiding, pick up the pencil on purpose, and become as good at it as you can
be. You don't get to choose whether you are an artist, Aarav. You only get
to choose whether you are a hiding one or a happy one."
Aarav looked at the flame on the page, then at the real flame, and for the
first time in three days he stopped feeling like he had to apologise for it.