Long ago, on the edge of a great forest, a king asked two young
students of the sage Gautama to build a stone wall around the
hermitage. Tigers had been seen near the cows at night, and a wall
would keep the sacred herd safe.
The first student, Vidur, rolled up his sleeves at sunrise. The
stones were heavy and the morning grew hot. His palms blistered. His
back ached. By noon, sweat ran down his face like rain.
The second student, Shubha, lifted three stones, felt the burn in his
arms, and stopped. "This is too hard," he said. "My hands hurt. My
shoulders are on fire. Why should I suffer like this?" He sat in the
shade and watched a kingfisher dart over the river, telling himself he
had wisely "let go" of a troublesome task.
Vidur worked on. Stone by stone, the wall rose. When the sun went
down, half the wall stood firm and strong, and he slept like a stone
himself, tired but light inside.
Shubha slept poorly. He kept thinking, "I gave up the work — so I
should feel free now." But he felt no freedom at all. Only a small,
nagging shame, like a pebble in his sandal.
The next morning the sage Gautama walked the grounds. He ran his hand
along Vidur's wall and smiled. Then he looked at Shubha's empty patch
of ground and the pile of untouched stones.
"Shubha," the sage said gently, "you thought you let go of the work.
But tell me — do you feel any of the peace that letting-go is supposed
to bring?"
Shubha looked down. "No, Gurudev. I only feel restless and small."
"That is because you did not let go of anything worthy," said Gautama.
"You only ran from a sore back. To drop your duty because it is hard
is not renunciation. It is fear wearing renunciation's clothes. The
true reward, the quiet heart, comes to the one who does the hard thing
fully, and then offers it up. Fear gives up the work but keeps the
weight. Wisdom does the work and sets the weight down."
Shubha picked up a stone. It was heavy, and his hands still hurt. But
this time he held on. By dusk, the second half of the wall was rising,
and for the first time he felt the small, clean peace he had been
chasing all along.