The thunderstorm had come fast over Madhubani — black clouds piling up, the
sky cracking open, rain falling so hard the lane outside Nani's house turned
to a brown river. Ravi had stood at the window the whole time, his heart
knocking against his ribs, Moti the puppy pressed shivering against his ankles.
Lightning had lit the whole world white. The thunder had sounded like
something enormous walking across the rooftops.
He hadn't said he was scared. But Nani saw the way his shoulders had climbed
up toward his ears, and the way he flinched at every flash.
Then, the way storms do, it ended.
Not slowly. All at once. The rain thinned to a patter, then to single drops,
then to nothing. The thunder rolled away to somewhere else, grumbling, going.
A bird tried out one wet note. Another answered. And then the sun pushed
through a gap in the clouds and laid a warm yellow stripe right across the
courtyard floor, steam rising off the wet stones.
Ravi felt it happen in his own body. His shoulders came down. The tight knot
in his chest loosened, one cord at a time. He took a long breath — the first
full breath in what felt like an hour — and let it out slowly. Moti felt it
too; the puppy stopped shivering, gave a great shake from nose to tail, and
trotted to the door wagging, ready for the world again.
"There you are," Nani said, watching him. "You've come back."
"I'm okay now," Ravi said, and was surprised to find it was completely true.
He stepped out into the bright, dripping courtyard. Everything looked washed
and new — the marigolds heavy with water, the sky scrubbed pale blue. He was
just Ravi again, in his ordinary courtyard, on an ordinary afternoon. The
enormous, frightening thing had passed over him and gone, and left him exactly
himself.
That was Arjuna in the chariot. He had seen the whole roaring universe, and it
had shaken him to his bones. Now the gentle, familiar face of his friend was
before him again. And like a boy after a storm, he let out his breath and felt
his own steady heart return. "Now I am settled," he said. "I have come back to
myself."