Arjuna closed his eyes against the blaze and tried to remember.
He pictured the form of Vishnu he had always loved — not endless and
terrifying, but a shape a heart could hold. The tall crown catching the
light. The mace resting easily in one strong hand. The bright spinning
discus in another. Four arms, not a thousand; a face you could look at
without being burned; eyes that met yours and stayed.
"That," he breathed. "Let me see *that* again."
He remembered how, as a child, he had loved certain pictures of God — small
enough to keep beside his bed, kind enough to talk to in the dark. The vast
cosmic form was true, gloriously true; but it was like trying to hug the
whole sky. What his heart wanted was the friend who could fit in a doorway
and walk in and sit down beside him.
"O thousand-armed one," he said to the towering vision, "you who hold every
world inside your body — I have seen your greatness, and I will never forget
it. But please, fold all that vastness back into the shape I know. The
crown. The mace. The discus. The four kind arms. Become that for me again."
He was not asking God to be smaller. He understood now that the gentle form
and the cosmic form were the very same Lord, the way the same ocean can be
a single cupped handful of water you lift to your lips, or the whole crashing
sea that reaches past the horizon. He had drunk from the sea. Now he wanted
the handful.
"Take that form," Arjuna asked softly, "and I will be able to breathe
again."
And the great light, hearing him, began — slowly, gently — to gather itself
in.