Years had passed in the high cave above the treeline. Devadatta — who
had once climbed there as a restless boy, chasing his thoughts like a
puppy chasing leaves — was a boy no longer. He had sat in that cave at
the same hour through countless dawns. Rain had drummed on the rock;
snow had hushed the world white; spring had returned again and again to
the valley below. And every day, without fail, he had simply sat.
In the early years his practice had felt like work — hauling his wandering
mind back, over and over, like a fisherman drawing in a heavy net. But
little by little the net grew lighter. The mind that had once bolted at
every sound now came to rest the moment he settled. Where there had been
effort, there was now only ease.
On this particular dawn, Devadatta sat as he always did, body straight,
breath soft. And something that had been ripening for years quietly came
to fruit. His thoughts, fully gathered and stilled, grew calmer and
calmer — and then, like a lamp flame that does not blow out but simply
sinks into a deep and peaceful glow, his small, separate sense of self
melted away.
There was no more "Devadatta sitting in a cave." There was only a vast,
shining stillness, without edges, without fear, without any wanting left
over. It was not emptiness; it was fullness — the boundless Self he had
been seeking all along, the same Self that lit every creature in the
valley below. He had not gone anywhere. He had simply come home to what
was always there.
This was the peace the old teachers called *nirvana* — not a blank, but
a freedom so complete that nothing could ever disturb it again. The
morning sun rose over the ridge and filled the cave with gold, and the
figure within sat in it like a still pool holding the whole sky.
When at last he opened his eyes, Devadatta was smiling. The long climb,
he understood now, had carried him not up the mountain, but all the way
into the heart of peace itself.