Jew Town Road in Mattancherry smelled like the inside of the earth
turned inside out.
Pepper — black, white, green. Cardamom pods fat as thumbnails.
Cinnamon bark rolled into scrolls so tight they looked like ancient
manuscripts. Cloves, star anise, turmeric root, dried ginger sliced
thin as paper. The spice market of Kochi had been here for five
hundred years — since Arab traders and Portuguese merchants
converged on this sliver of the Malabar Coast because the pepper
that grew in these hills was worth its weight in gold.
Zahra was twelve. She had grown up in this market the way a fish
grows up in the sea — surrounded by it, shaped by it, unable to
imagine a world that did not smell of cardamom and black pepper.
Her father, Ismail, ran a spice shop that his father had run and
his father before him, in a narrow building with teak pillars and
a weighing scale so old the brass had turned green.
Every morning, Zahra walked through the market to open the shop.
And every morning, the market tried to pull her in a hundred
directions. The jackfruit seller slicing open a fruit so ripe its
sweetness hit your nose from ten meters away. The banana chip
stall where the oil popped and the chips came out golden. The
Chinese fishing nets at the waterfront, rising and falling like
the wings of enormous birds.
Zahra noticed everything. She smelled the jackfruit and her mouth
watered — but she did not stop. She heard the sizzle of banana
chips and felt the pull in her stomach — but she kept walking.
She saw the fishing nets and wanted to stand and watch them for
an hour — but her feet carried her past.
She simply moved through the market the way a boat moves through
water — touching everything, held by nothing.
Her father had taught her this. Not with words — Ismail was a man
of few words — but by example. He sat in his shop all day
surrounded by the most intoxicating smells on earth, and his face
was always the same: calm, present, engaged but untroubled. He
weighed, he sold, he swept the floor, and at the end of the day
he walked home with the same steadiness with which he had opened
the shop.
"Abba," Zahra had once asked him, "doesn't the smell drive you
mad?"
Ismail had looked at her with his quiet eyes. "The smell is
beautiful," he said. "I love it. But I do not need it to be
anything other than what it is. I do not need to grab it or keep
it or own it. I just let it be."
Zahra opened the shop. The smell of five hundred years of spice
rose from the floorboards. She breathed it in, smiled, and
reached for the broom. The morning was clear. Her mind was
clearer.